i recently bought myself a bouquet of 紫陽花. they are my favorite flowers. usually I had only ever bought flowers for mother’s day, for birthdays, graduating friends, never for the body i used and walked around with.

that meant it was my first time washing the vase at home, cutting the stems, fingers carefully avoiding the thorns.

in the same vein i realized that if i was to grow, i had to remove the petals which were dying — otherwise it would infect whatever other good was in me. otherwise i would be dead within a few days by my own hand. just because i didn’t want to remove it, i was comfortable, i was afraid of the after, that i wouldn’t grow any more pretty petals.

the point is, you’ve got to be ready to chop off some ugly parts of yourself if you want to rebrand.